Being Active as opposed to Passive

What's going on in the world can sometimes feel as if it's beyond your control. Indeed it may be, but your response to it isn't necessarily so. You can passively accept everything thrown at you, or be active, in which case you assume your own direction. 

In each case the feeling state is quite different.

The passive state can gradually wear you down, take away your spontaneity and your drive, sap your will, has an out-of-control downdrift quality. You feel like a piece of flotsam, disintegrating, prone to an awareness of disease, at the mercy of internal or external influences, anticipating your own quick or slow annihilation.

Compare this with determining your own direction, remembering (re-membering = gathering together the parts of your being) who you are essentially. Unifying the Will in the direction of your choosing. You're on the road to somewhere, your own self-defined goal. 

As opposed to dissolution, the self-defined purpose is accompanied by a feeling of immortality; instead of despair, joy fills you; instead of gradually being worn down, dignity raises you. 

In each case the feeling is quite different.