ego uncertainty

The way I see it, and I'm not the first to see it this way, the unborn child dreams its way through the evolution of its ancestral line. At birth its will is pure, free, unchallenged. Coming into contact with external beings draws its attention away from its essentially free nature, and after much influence this contact produces an idea structure in the child which it comes to believe is its real self. This idea structure is the ego.

The ego learns tricks to get its own way, seeking to gain control over the other beings around it. When they appear to work most of the time as successful techniques of manipulation, many tricks learned in childhood may stay with it for life.

But from this, springs an insecurity. Seeking power over others is a vanity, an emptiness. In seeking power over others its internal, freely willing in-dependence, its inner-dependence, its essence ... has been abandoned. 

Later on it has come to realise that refrigerators, washing machines and cars have evolved into fairly reliable pieces of kit [though it seems at times as if several of them are breaking down at once].

The same reliability has been shown not to be true when allopathic pharmaceuticals are allowed to tinker with body chemistry. Because of its outward-turning gross material focus, the child has now grown up, lost contact with its innermost self, and its education has persuaded it to accept the inefficient of pharmacy as being the only approach. It may have an appreciation of the side effects it has felt with the use of them, but this is overridden by an outward flight, a running away from the problem into those uncertain arms of pharmacy. Alas, most state education fills the child's head with ideas, but does not teach it to think for itself. 

With focus on the external, seeking power over others, it has lost recognition of the fact that it is itself perfect, if only it would stop for a moment and listen to the quiet voice of perfection within, which would guide it continuously towards health.

It can't win in its attempt to control others, because this same attempt to control is in most others also. Even if it could have won, it would then have become a puppet master, with no intelligent audience to witness the show. Where is the joy in that? 

'Unless you become as little children you will never gain the kingdom', means precisely this. Giving up the make-believe, disconnecting from the ego structure and becoming the pure essential child within. The only true security is the inner security. 

When it is found, you become it. 

You are in charge of you.